Wasted Time

This is originally from February 2014, but applies equally to today.  Back then I was squandering my time through distractions and computer games and who knows what...basically wasting time instead of doing the things that I know needed to be done to refresh and restore my soul and enrich the lives of those around me.  So I share this with you today.  Thank you for taking the time to read.  May you find something worthwhile in this.

"Father, please clear this house of mine, both the physical one I live in where I walk over everything instead of committing to do something with it, but also my spiritual and physical home (body) that I live in.  It needs to be exercised (the muscles are tired from disuse) and my spirit growing scattered.  Father, today I feel defeated, depleted and worn out.  Please create in me a transformation.  My hands are open.  Master Painter, please guide my hand and take the brush and create in me a masterpiece.  I confess I can be fairly clueless often times and have little idea how to navigate this story called my life.  Sometimes I like to think so, but really, no--  I'm falling into old patterns again Father and I don't like it.  I thought I learned this lesson this summer, but perhaps this one is a bit different, but I am willing to learn Father.  I fall before You now, arms wide open waiting to receive Your comforting, guiding, loving hand, Your gentle touch, to gently life my teary, downcast face to look upon the Light, the light of Jesus.  John 8:12 "I am the light of the world..."  In John 1:9 Jesus is described as "the true light that gives light..."  The true light that gives light; He can not be snuffed out.  He shares His light- no gives us His light. "You Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light" (Psalm 18:28).  "...Let the light of Your face shine on us. Fill my heart with joy..In peace I will lie down and sleep for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety" (Psalm 4:6-8).  

Father, thank You for Your light that shines into dark places, my dark places- not as dark as some peoples' but still not all light.  Father please shine Your light and clear out old cobwebs and dust from unused places and scrub clean the things I'm not proud of.  Thank you.  In Jesus' precious and holy name, Amen"